I’m gonna lose it! by Heather Ledeboer
By Heather Ledeboer | Category: Pursuing God, Sawyer's Story, The Journey of Motherhood
Stupid maternity pants, get out of my life (or at least out of my closet). I would be happy to welcome you back into my life (with great fanfare) in some future month, but quite honestly our relationship has gone on far too long. It is not that you are not stylish in your own special way or that you don’t offer great comfort to a bulging belly and bottom but lets be honest I just don’t want to need you anymore, go away! And when you leave, please take my remaining 20 post-partum pounds with you so that I can slip back into the jeans that miss me so dearly.
Ya, gotta love that baby fat without the baby, it sucks. It sucks to have a closet full of perfectly lovely clothes that don’t fit. I am too stubborn to want to buy things to fit me now because I don’t want to be in my "now" size long enough to justify the gas to go to the store to buy them. But I am also getting really tired of my narrow selection of maternity pants. You might think that a mom that owns a website filled with all things baby and maternity I would be loaded with amazing maternity clothes. Truth be told, I got a few great essentials from my selection and then borrowed from friends and shopped the Old Navy clearance rack for the rest!
So what to do about this situation. . . hmmmm lets try a cleanse!
Today is the end of day 5 of our (my husband is so great to do this with me) 10 day "Perfect Cleanse". We are eating one serving of fruit every few hours and a full vegetable packed salad (with dressing) for dinner with lots of water and some additional whole food vitamins and supplements (the exact menu we are following is outlined in the book Perfect Weight–which you can get for free if you buy any of the Perfect Cleanse supplements). I am a total fruit lover and I really enjoy salads too so I figured this wouldn’t be too bad. After day 5 I can say that it isn’t bad at all. We are surprised to find that we are not going hungry because the meals (although small) are frequent. I am really missing my night time chocolate chip cookie though!!
For me this cleanse is motivation to jump-start my body into a good routine of eating well, exercising and drinking more water. I bought a scale yesterday (I haven’t owned one in years) and was amazed to learn that there are scales that will tell you if you are properly hydrated (I asked for the model that would do my laundry but apparently that one has been back ordered for quite some time). I figure if I am putting a good 10 days into a clean start for my system I should be able to keep things going in a good direction.
So I will check in when the cleanse is done (or maybe before) and let you know how things are moving along (wink, wink).
For some added entertainment, you might enjoy this 9 min, 20 sec video that I put together as part of an "audition tape" for a new reality/documentary show that is being produced that will come to the homes of working moms who own their own business and show what it is like for them. If you have seen our "Office Video" already the beginning will not be new, for you but for any of you that may not have seen the "4 Free Friday" giveaway videos that we used to do the end of this video is a nice sampling of some of the craziness that goes down here in Athol, ID at Mom 4 Life 
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P.S. An updated praise report on my friend that I mentioned at the end of yesterday’s post–as of her appointment today, both babies now have heartbeats, praise God!!
P.S.S. I KNOW that I am not "overweight", please don’t feel like you need to reassure me. Todays post is simply my honest feelings in regards to my annoyance at STILL not fitting into anything except my lovely maternity pants.
tee hee… I totally should have burned my maternity pants!
I sent some much overdue thank-you linky love to you today at http://tarasviewoftheworld.blogspot.com/2008/06/catching-up.html
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Good idea on the maternity pants burning
I wish I’d thought of that! Ha! I follow your blog very closely (as do several of my friends and family now) and you and your family are in our prayers even though we’ve never met you. 
But yes, as of “these days” this is my favorite blog to check out. 
have a great day Heather!
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Lovin’ that picture! I have been wanting to do a cleanse for a while now (I have to lose 20 pounds too!) and I love Jordan Rubin, so this one would be perfect for me. When I see you next Tuesday I can’t wait to hear all about your cleanse… is that weird? =)
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i hear ya.
my daughter is 3.5 and i think i’d still be wearing maternity if i didn’t go buy the bigger size.
that cleanse sounds interesting.
how nice of your husband to do it with you! my chris would view it as some form of sick torture.
i once fed him soy BBQ and passed it off as real meat. only after he was finished did i burst and tell him he had just eaten bean curd and wasn’t it GOOD?
–yay for 2 heartbeats!
–did not know about the hydration scale either, huh. can you step on it with wet hair or will it be confused?
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LOL I have no idea about the wet hair, I think it would know the difference. It sends electrical impulses through your body I think (you can’t feel them) to determine the body fat and the amount of water I think so likely wouldn’t be affected. That is funny about your husband.:)
-Heather L
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Haaaaaaa, well this post reminds me of myself to a T. You look fantastic btw, I don’t know what bulging belly you speak of but it’s well hidden if indeed it exists.
I too, have been obsessed with shedding my baby weight (not saying youre obsessed but I indeed will admit I am). I too have just recently bought a scale and haven’t owned one in many years. I got it with the intention that if by some miracle, it started moving in the right direction, it would further motivate me to stick with whatever it was I found was working. Then there is the opposite problem, having the scale just not move at all, which is what has been my problem. =( Then I want to throw it at the wall and go cry some more. I like the sound of that cleanse you are on, I will have to look into it. There is something called the Master Cleanse that would probably make you feel like you were starving, at least in the beginning but I know it sheds the pounds very quickly for most people. I know plenty of people that have done it but I never have. Now that I’m nursing, it’s not safe and I’m thinking probably any cleanse out there wouldn’t be.
I would just say stick with what you’re doing. I’ve been trying to ‘jump start’ my body for months now. Started speed walking every night for the last 3 or 4 months now, cut back dramitcally on my portions, calories, eat better. That is all I’ve done in the past after pregnancy and it’s all been off by 6 mos postpartum- but not sooner. I just hit 6 mos post partum and still have about 9 lbs to go. =( When I think of 9 lbs, it doesn’t seem so impossible, but it’s taken this long to lose the rest, very slow going! And after doing all I have and never having adapted any excercise routine in my whole life, I guess I thought it would speed things along but it doesn’t seem it has. I think I’ve lost 5 lbs since I started all of this, pretty disappointing.
I caved and went out and bought one pair of pants that are a HUGE size, because I could NOT stand to keep living in maternity pants, and not even feel them getting looser. I wanted to feel ‘normal’ and wear regular clothes! But I refuse to buy anymore until I can fit into my favorite pair of jeans. =( I keep checking, but still too tight for my comfort. At least the huge pair of new pants now need a belt to stay up, so that has been good for the morale lol. Keep us posted on your progress!! Good job.
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Oh you are so cute, sorry to say it but it is nice to hear that you are “feeling my pain so to speak”. With my first two kids my weight came off pretty easily while nursing and I was back to my pre pregnancy weight in about 6 months. I likely could be headed in that directly now too but knowing we would like to start trying to get pregnant again in another month or two I really would like to start out on a clean slate weight wise rather than adding more on top of what I currently have. Here is hoping your scale and my scale get the plan of what we want to see and start making us happy before we pull out the matches on them!;)
-Heather
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YAY for the ceremonial burning of the maternity pants!! I sent mine away, immediately, to my prego sister after Micah was born so I would HAVE to find a way to fit into my pre-preggo pants!
I’m jealous you can get your hubby to do the cleansing thing w/ you – mine will work out but has a hard time giving up his favorite foods. lol. I’m determined, though, to be in the best shape of my life come my 30th bday in Oct. so I need to get my tail in gear! Perhaps I should blog about it for a little accountability!
Good luck w/ the audition tape, too!
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Hi Heather,
This is EXACTLY what I am going through at the moment. Laney is almost 10 mos. old and I STILL have not lost my previous “baby fat” from Brody and he will be 4 next month! YIKES! As of June 2nd I put myself on a STRICT HEALTHY eating diet, (in fear that someone would as me when I am due). I could not even suck that thing in, it just hung there! YUCK! Ok, so since the 2nd, I have lost 9lbs.with another 30 to lose. I have not had a chocolate chip cookie since the 2nd and I so badly want a HUGE ICE CREAM sundae with peanut butter and chocolate syrup! YUM!!! Ok, back to my Honey bunches of oates. Good luck with the cleanse, I almost ordered one last month, but chickened out. Can’t wait to hear the results!
Wonderful news for your friend!
My prayers are still with you.
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I typically pack up all my maternity clothes within 2 weeks of delivery -I just can’t stand the site of them anymore! Then I would try everything on and maybe buy 1 pair of pants to get by with. One year later I am working to lose baby weight. I never lost it all while nursing . . . and my last 3, of 4 were 17 mo and 2 years apart. I was not nursing all but 2 months in there – I have about 25lbs to go, since there is always another extra 10 with each baby! Slow but sure I will get there – 20 lbs so far. Do let us know how the cleanse goes. Hugs
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Hi Heather,
Good luck with the reality show. I am about 110% sure you will be on the show!
I thought about entering for about 1/2 second.
It’s not something for me, but I can’t wait to see how the show turns out!
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well that first picture is absolutely ADORABLE! you look so cute!
How’s that for pathetic?
and for the record (and keep this between you and I, because I know NOBODY else reads this blog and will EVER find out)…Ryan is 3.5 and I just stopped wearing my nursing bra 2 months ago.
xoxo
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LOL (your secret is safe with me;) I often wear my bravado nursing bras even when I am not nursing because they are so comfortable:).
-Heather L.
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just came back to remind you not to tell anyone my “secret”
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LOL you are such a goof;)
-Heather
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you are sooo cute, Heather! =))
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“I asked for the model that would do my laundry but apparently that one has been back ordered for quite some time” Heather, make sure you add your sense of humor to your list of praises one of these days
When I get to heaven I am going to ask God if sarcasm is really a spiritual gift he just forgot to mention in the Bible.
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burn them baby, burn them!
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I’ve never owned a scale either and don’t personally want to know what it would tell me so I still don’t. I’ve always relied on “how do my clothes fit?” Yeah, that’s turning out to be a bad idea! There has to be something therapeutic about burning maternity pants. While I love my postpartum body I am still deeply desiring some sense of normalcy and when I look at a whole wardrobe of adorable clothes that I can’t wear I feel relegated to that “mommy” look I’ve always dreaded. LOL why do we fight so hard against the inevitable? Anyway, just want you to know we’re with you no matter what everyone says about how we should think we look.
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So I just now actually watched your submission video and this is what I am excited about: 1. The clip from the last drawing where you guys did the musical papers thing had my name in it! I never actually caught that the first time I watched it last fall so that was funny to hear my name… too bad she then crumpled it up and threw it away LOL 2. If this Mom4Life thing doesn’t work out you have a future in producing reality shows. GREAT job!
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